My life now

Been experiencing some turbulence over the few months. Things weren’t moving like I’m expecting it would. Well.. I have been telling myself that I need to pray hard… yes I do! I woke up 6am every Sunday just to go for my weekly prayers at the usual Indian temple I went.

But… I don’t know whether it is God doesn’t hear my calls.. or he thought of another better route for me cuz the one I have chosen not the right one… he lead me to the other path of my life… a new start for me… yes, either HIS way or my way.. it will be a new start…

Now, I guess HE has shown HIS way and I have taken his guide to move on my life with it… will it be a smart choice?

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Will there be rainbows waiting for me as the end result? I hope it is… at least there is hope for me. Rather some disappointment before everything even started…

*sigh*… very nervous yet excited to start a new life… not that I’m not good in adapting myself. Just that… when you are used to what you have and what you do daily, you are scared of a change. And I guess I’m scared too!

Decision has been made and there is no turning back.. definitely! Harsh words have been blurted out and they have hurt the people around me.. not an apology word can replace the hurtful moment. Guess I have been too emotional when I speak out…

Anyway, let’s forget the unhappy moment. Just think of the happy ones. I’m counting down on the new change, my new life now. I should be happy of the decision I have made cuz I’m responsible on the decision of my life. Well… at least mom was happy and I’m happy that she is happy She is always the support of my life. For whatever I do, for whatever decision I have made, I will still follow what she want…. except… marrying someone of her choice and not mine! I know she always want the best for me. I’m like the gem of her life… except now got Darren to replace me d >.< This also reminds me of my conversation with her that day… I said she pampered Darren too much and she doesn’t even care for me anymore. She asked “You jealous a?” lol… ya.. I’m jealous over my own nephew or should I say my own child?

Nothing can buy the smile on my mom’s face… I’ll be good. I’ll be very good. Guess she won be worrying this and that with my this decision.

Stay tuned on me revealing my decision of life!