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Been thinking a lot…

I think it’s been weeks since my last post on something emotional… guess when you are too free… you tend to think a lot… a lot of negative thoughts will crawl into your brain automatically…


Hmm….. where should I start? *sigh* too many things in my mind now… don’t know what to do, how to proceed, how to make my own dream come true, etc…


I was never a happy-go-lucky person… I should say I’m a negative person… well… I tried to throw away the negative thoughts… I do… I think everyone will have their own down time once in awhile… as long as you know when you should get up from the down side…


I have a friend… we were once very close when we were in UNI… as there was some incidents happened, she became a different person.. acted differently… so we stopped contacting each other… well… that’s not important anymore… we chatted in msn lately… and she asked about me for what happened to me over the years(basically we haven’t talk for at least 2 years)… erm…. that time I was quite emo… so she told me ” Ivy, you are a very independent person. You always show people the strong you but deep down inside you are not. You just need to clear off your mind and do what you think is right. ”


If you ask me, I never thought to be a very independent person. I’m just a simple girl hoping to go through a simple life. I forced myself to be strong and independent since young because I have no choice. Ever since dad passed away, things have never been easy. *sigh*… I’m thinking of the past again.. which I shouldn’t ….


Back to my emo thoughts on this Sunday afternoon…


Yesterday night I went for movie ~ Salt… it was supposed to be a very good night.. and it was great until I got phone calls in the middle of the show. As I don’t have the phone number in my phone list, I just ignored it. Well… of course you will ignore it especially you are in a movie. After 3 missed calls… I received a sms. I didn’t check it till the show ended.


It was totally a big turned off… I was asked to follow up on my work.. on a Saturday night… and must respond to the person asap. I was like “WTF! It’s Saturday. and even if I really need to check or ask, I can only do so on Monday cuz Sunday all the offices are closed”…


Ya ya… I know work is like that. but because of this I didn’t sleep till 2am… not to say I’m settling my job stuff… but too many things caught in my mind… this incident really made me think a lot…


A lot like what I really want in my life… Ok… basically I know what I want… just that I didn’t make a move on persuing it…


When I’m motivated, I will be very excited to do what I wanted to … but the next day… I will slow down the pace… is like I’m going back to my own comfort zone… many people also like that… rather stay in their comfort zone and don’t move on….


It’s bad… I know. I shouldn’t be. *sigh*


Many times, we thought of what we want and dreamt about it day and might… but when it comes to the real situation, things might be different… it might be the other way round of what we thought…

*sigh*… I’m talking crap whole day d… alright .. time to cut it off. Got to find back the spirit. Tomorrow will be another busy day.


Ok… got to go jogging with mom now! 🙂

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